Old wounds.

June 2018

Today I head to mediation to finally close and cut the tie from an old wound.

Although I can feel the wee nerves in my belly I’m surprised to feel more power and love inside then I have before. I took good care of myself last night and it showed. I had no nightmares or stress dreams and felt ok.

Normally I’d be wresting with fear and anxiety but not today. Today I am ready to say the big fat NO to a person who has treated me like a target. A bully, a narcissist and a fraud.

I have learned many hard lessons with this experience especially because I have a child with this person so the vulnerability has felt quite high for some time.

I’m heading out in a moment and wanted to ask my fellow medicine people/women and loving spirits out there for some prayer for me and that this tie shall be cut for good. No more will he have any kind of power over me, my worries or fears.

I hold my heart in my hand and am feeling some pride in the fact that I see this mornings mediation as a way to close what I hadn’t realized I’d left open. Also that my son is fine, and will be fine. That the experience with his father is his and only his and I can let that go.

Off I go...